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my gender is being entitled to financial compensation
im so glad i have like super low expectations for going on T cause theyre so doable and working with what ive got. all im looking for is:
and honestly im golden. dysphoria resigned. squish squish am i right fellas (i wanna do gel, i dont mess around with needles)
dont mind me im just crying to trans/nb tiktoks 😢😢💞💕❤️
proud of surviving. proud of living. proud of just existing the way i am. nothing more is needed to "earn" that pride.
im actually curious..what was your guys' 'lgbt introduction'? like, when did you get into the community? did you learn about it from a piece of media or from people around you?
for me, ive always known about gay and bi+ people since i was in middle school, and i started iding as ace when i was 13. but my big introduction wasnt til undertale came out. i didnt understand why people were so specific about frisk's pronouns until i saw posts about them being non-binary. and then i was like "what's a none-beenary??" and that led to me learning about other gender spectrums and a bunch of micro identities. and now i use five microlabels and my gender has escaped into the stratosphere *t poses* 😎thoughts
...it was homestuck :') at age 15. at least i was smart enough to click through some of the resources that circulated on tumblr. first labels i went with were bisexual + (trans) nonbinary. i eventually moved on to more chill online lgbt+ spaces, but the first time i interacted with the local community was the first year of college in a feminist reading group. :)
me: getting that good sleep!!!!
my brain: hey wake up. wake up. remember that wander over yonder forum roleplay you did in like 2016? you completed that. with like 100% original illustrations for longer posts and everything. and then the other person asked you permission to adapt it into a fic and post it to their ao3 account. and then they told you when they posted it and you checked it out and they hadnt even tried to credit you. so you asked them to do that and they added a footnote. anyway what was that thread even about? it was something about watchdogs. like was it about any ship? probably not lord hater/commander peepers. or was it?? you were totally peepers, but the other person didnt seem like the type to be able to handle hater. so... wander/peepers? that was a thing. wow. i used to be so into that. actually allll the mains have such amazing chemistry and wholesome moments of tenderness im really not surprised that a considerable number of ppl were like yup! theyre a polycule!! and everyone else was like sounds legit. imagine that. anyway. maybe it was abt peepers/a watchdog oc. or maybe maybe ahh this one is probably not it but just watchdog oc/watchdog oc. cause that was also a thing, holy shit. we all watched that episode where they humanized the comical evil villain disposable identical goons and got to cranking the oc machine. thats when i first realized with my big galaxy brain that its rlly dark and edgy to be a mindless cog in a machine... the military industrial complex. wander over yonder literally radicalized me. wander over yonder made me accept my gay and transness by projecting onto a certain character. i dont even wanna say who but if you watch the show then you KNOOOW. anyway i wonder if i could ever find that thread. i remember being very meticulous with the writing and feeling proud of that. and the illustrations. but i dont remember any of my esoteric usernames from that era....
loveing the rainbow.... exuberant yet simple.. it says it all
had a dream where i kissed a guy and i was the one who came on to him and everything but somehow i knew deep down that he was straight and perceived me as female. which is like my worst nightmare. so like. its got me thinkin abt the things that i always think about. identity. love. relationships.
its awkward to have one arm out of the closet flailing against the hard wooden door and its frustrating to be in a goddamn global quarantine just in the middle of your delayed teenagehood when you want to experiment and do crazy shit and go on dates with ppl and make misakes and learn and experience and learn.
and i might be still in the process of defining my own gender and sexuality but what i have for a fact is 2 perfect labels (gay + trans), a big time disconnect from womanhood and an emotional restraining order against cishet men
(at the pharmacy)
me: how much for this one? (points to square blue box of Chester Ice TM cologne)
shopkeep: that ones for men
shopkeep: ok lemme check...
too spoiled by duckduckgo so its jarring when im on mobile and look up how to fix relationship with parents the chucklefucks at googo hq throw up articles for the 25-30 yo high powered cishet career woman that theyve profiled me as
well im sick of it and ill eventually figure out how to cgange the default engibe
for some ungodly reason my first typing suggestions are my deadname even though i havent typed it in like months. catch me tryibg to kick a virtual keyboards ass
im a "man" in the same way urban legends are called "the (something) man"
reminder that no diet in the world is gonna change your fat distribution pattern. its a tough pill to swallow but pls nourish your bodies
feeling super masculine
how are we feelin for twenty twen-T
ready to trans your gender
15 yo me had such good taste. black, white and blue camo bikini. would look good on any girl...
can we all agree to stop calling m/f ships "straight" or "het"? it erases bi, pan and queer people whose relationships can never be accurately described as "straight", as well as certain nb and even binary trans people, all of which deserve to participate in shipping fun without lg side-eyeing their headcanons and fanworks
ok ive got it: lambda patch on one back pocket, ying yang on the other
not to be dramatic but im packing and i used an eyebrow pencil to thicken up my facial hair
“Gender is a shell game. What is a man? Whatever a woman isn't. What is a woman? Whatever a man is not. Tap on it and it's hollow. Look under the shells: it's not there.”
who needs dysphoria when you have a spiderman costume?
ok im curious. are there any other transmascs who prefer not to bind bc even though its not a bra you can still feel a Thing around your chest area that constantly reminds you of whats there?
this is why i just layer undershirts and stuff, i know its not as effective but its just reassuring to leave my moobs be, hangin out Somewhere under a shapeless silhouette.